care page

i just read through Sue's care page. heart breaking... but also comforting to see all of the support we had. it is all such a blur at this point. i am so thankful that i saved it.

SD

kids

so yet another friend is prego. i am so psyched for them... they are a beautiful couple and totally deserve it. i can't help but looking back and realizing that my time has passed. it's not a bad thing or a good thing... just a thing. i knew when sue was diagnosed that babies would not be in the cards for me. i do think i would have enjoyed being a mother tho. hmmm.

sd

thank you

thank you all for the phone calls... i am not going to off myself...

love you!
sd, bd, me

why bother

i feel like i am going crazy. i am experiencing mood swings that are honestly making me question my sanity. i go from being seriously suicidal to laughing with friends. i am at my wits end. i just want to be with sue again.

tomorrow

“If ever there is tomorrow when we're not together.. there is something you must always remember. you are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think. but the most important thing is, even if we're apart.. I'll always be with you.”- Christoper Robin to Winnie the Pooh